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I have to go to orientation tomarrow. JOYUS. Just what I need. School.
It has been decided that next summer I am moving to Oregon to go live with my super awsome nd sexy husband Kyle. :o)
Wanna see a pic of him? O god i could show pics for days.
Aww i love that picture! He's so fucking adorable i love it. Haha even Alicia thinks so.
ANYWHOO. Yeah. So... FUCK CALIFORNIA!!!! I'm fucking finally getting
out! Away from the drama bullshit backstabbing gossipping bullshit and
into the complicated world of "commitment"............. yay! ((I hope
you know that was dripping with sarcasm))
Yeah.. I am excited though. Everything here sucks.. I HATE joey now.
I don't want to get into it. But he's a dick. Fuck him.
Everything is changing between my friends. I'm not sure about some of them anymore. Too many of them are becoming tweakers.
My family thinks I've been smoking crack because I've dropped hella
weight nd Im not eating nd I'm not sleeping. But whatever... fuck them.
I'm leaving them in a year anyways.
Hmm soo yeah. Things with my scribbles are going pretty good........ we
been fighting alot lately though. It's mostly my fault cos he's a huge
myspace whore nd there's these 3 bitches that he talks to nd he asked
one of them out nd the other one he was talking to about hooking up
with nd the last one was just like in love with him nd yeah. all on
myspace too. wtf. it's a cult
ANYWAYS... yeah we had a bit of drama but he's proven his point of his
devotion to me nd ONLY me nd yeah. now we're good but like i'm still
kinda psycho nd i just need to chill out nd trust him cos i don't wanna
fuck this up with my psycho bitch untrustingness nd yeah.
lol scribbles is so weird. i love it! we have tons in common too. Liek
everything pretty much. not to mention he's FROM essj...... fuckin
seven trees nd shit... nd i could like walk to seven trees if i wanted
to. haha anyways.. he's a dumbass too.. nd he's fuckin hilarious......
nd i just love him. cos he's the shit. :o)
Yeah........................
i need a cigarette nd i don't feel like writing anymore.
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| I'd give you everything if you'd just let me stand beside you.
Why can't you see that you are my mind?
Another day... another memory... BUT I HAVE FUCKING FAILED
i die every time i hear your fucking name.
cos of you i still believe in nothing.
sorry bout tomarrow, i'm not sorry about today.
it's fucking freezing outside because i saw you tonight nd almost died.
i've been reduced to a fucking substance.
tell me it's right to feel dead inside.
nothing was supposed to hurt like this.
missing you was always one more kiss.
now there's nothing that i can do.
one more nail in the coffin nd it's all for...
i look back on a broken mess.
pictures shattered with the shards of glass.
all i ever wanted was to not be alone
i won't remember your eyes
i won't remember the jealousy
and my heart belongs to you....
so save me......?........
for the sake to give it away
i fucking hate myself.
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| sorry fuckers but this is graphical..... if you dont wanna read about
sex then fuck off right the fuck right now! aw who am i kidding who
isn't finna read this?
hol-EEEEEEEEEEEE shit.
2 hours.... like 8 organisms........ came 4 times........
that was by far THEE best.
EVER.
yeah i knew in a couple days we'd be bangin like drunken monkies.
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ANYWHOOOO............
OZZFEST PICS TIME!
this is mine nd katies new pipe. ZOMBIE CHILD. it was the first thing
we bought when we got into shoreline, the very first thing we did was
buy that thing. im holding it for now :o) i love it!
from left: katie poop, jasmine, nd jalicia... all stoned.. katie
painted up like shaggy... those are the ONLY girl friends i have!!!
haha i love them to death!
the ugly ass guitarist of trivium... that was one hell of a pit!
brian nd joey OF COURSE it just wouldn't be a metal concert without
these two! ((brian is the one that looks like bam isn't he fucking
HOT!??!))
ROB MUTHAFUCKIN ZOMBIE! katie nd jalicia flashed him. on camera.
that was the grass area during In flames. i have never seen it so
crowded in my life!!!! good view on the FAT pit in the bachground.
waaaay back there. look for the circle.
me nd jalicia fucking lit off our asses during..... iron maiden i
believe. i look deathly pale cos we started a pit when mudvayne played
not falling nd some whore knocked me downhill nd i like tumbled nd got
all dizzy nd shit. it was lame. but hey.... i survived... ND I AM NEVER
MOSHING ON A HILL AGAIN.
Sabbath got the fucking place to LIGHT THE FUCK UP with the lighters. that was only like 1/3 of the crowd!
so yeah ozzfest was sic. i made it out unraped, unsober, unsunbuurnt,
uninjured, unjacked, nd when i got home andrea smoked me out
FAAAAAAAAAT. hella.
ok so andrea nd my dad think i'm doing meth cos i dont sleep at night
nd i dont eat alot. wtf! i'm an insomniac, i'm nocturnal, nd i dont
like to eat when im stoned cos it kills the high. so fuck them. i'm a
weed smoker. greg nd joey know i wouldn't even look at that shit. so
fuck em! let em think im a tweaker. i'm a muthafuckin STONER. i've
learned alot about marijuana, especially in medical terms so i can get
a liscence. yep.................... that will be sweet.
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| Awwww.... i was talking to Kyle last night...
Chr0nic 420x: rawr i ddo not want to wear my plugs anymore!
dfknolonger4allX: lol
dfknolonger4allX: get spikes
dfknolonger4allX: lol
dfknolonger4allX: you want to change everythig huh?
dfknolonger4allX: hair color ear rings
Chr0nic 420x: yeah lol
dfknolonger4allX: what next....... getting a tan?
Chr0nic 420x: lol i want to listen to musidc too ive had my cd player in my lap off for like 30 mins
Chr0nic 420x: no
dfknolonger4allX: shopping at ambercrombie
Chr0nic 420x: i dont go in the sun
dfknolonger4allX: lol
dfknolonger4allX: lil pooku shel neclaces and short jean skirts
dfknolonger4allX: your drivin me crazy even more
Chr0nic 420x: ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww nooooooooooooo
Chr0nic 420x: i still wear my wacky clothes nd whorey makeup
dfknolonger4allX: its not whorey it you
dfknolonger4allX: and i love it
dfknolonger4allX: well at least you dont wear you make up like the nigger chick on the homies video
dfknolonger4allX: god does she look nasty
Chr0nic 420x: lol
dfknolonger4allX: you know your hot as hell oh yeah hooooooooooooot
dfknolonger4allX: mmmmmMmmmmmmmMmmmmmmm
Chr0nic 420x: i dont think so but okay
dfknolonger4allX: sticks and stones may break my bones , but whips and chain excite me!
dfknolonger4allX: well i do you are a gorgeous girl
dfknolonger4allX: you can whip me when we meet(when ever that is)
Chr0nic 420x: lol thanks
Chr0nic 420x: lol ok!
dfknolonger4allX: im not just saying the whole gorgeous thing to be
nice i mean it you are really reall beautiful and attractive in my books
Chr0nic 420x: heh
dfknolonger4allX: and then you got the personality and ect.... to match and i love you for it
Chr0nic 420x: ill take that as a good thing?
dfknolonger4allX: oh yeah
dfknolonger4allX: its a hella good thing
dfknolonger4allX: im pretty much saying you EVERYTHING i look for in a girl
It makes me want to cry... I WANT ONE GOD DAMNIT!!!!
it's so crazy.. he lives in oregon where alot of my dad's side of the
family lives.. nd he's from east san jose, like his old neighborhood is
right by mine......... crazy shit. but he's just so sweet.... raaaa
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